My Creative Work...

I'm getting to a point where I am not seeing the point in doing anything creative in the hopes that I inspire someone. Maybe I am going at it all wrong... & I don't think I am, but as a song writer, I would like to hope he or she has fans / a listening audience. I personally hardly see anything from others in the ways of "getting totally giddy" about my creative side. Maybe my music does suck, but i've heard music by friends of mine & they make terrible music & they have more fans. No one seems to go out of their way to hear my latest recording. I do my best & share enthusiasm about others work such as friends of mine whom write, record, draw & paint & its all like good in the moment & at the same time you try to be nice even when what they made is horrific & at the same time some are beyond amazing! 

I just don't get it... I know my music is not what a lot of people want to hear. Its the kind of stuff that takes an acquired taste. My newest album recordings are more contemporary then ever & its most likely going to take a while to catch on... even for 30mins in some teenagers attention span... & that 30mins might be 30 years from now... these recordings of mine just seem like... its all just dust in the wind. Even the music that is offered for free download, is having a hard time getting heared. The internets content search is exspanding everyday & for one person to come across my silly album is mostly due to random chance. No one is searching for the word Eshniner. Eshniner is not even a real word in any language. 

So pretty much I'm writing music for my walls to hear. 

Comic Book.

Been working on a comic called Witches Brew. Its one of those boundless story lines that could go on forever!

Learning Curve.

Realizing you've done or said something stupid in the after effects is how you learn & better your self & at the same time being intuitive enough to realize you've crossed the line takes  experience to better ones self. Without failure... there would be little reason to learn.

Ringmakers of Saturn.

"Presence of UFO's in our solar system introduces likelihood for analogous similarities in the universe. When an enlightened attitude is taken toward UFO advancement of not only the sciences but also the Arts & Humanities appears to be filled with new excitement." - Norman Bergrun 1986

Art Bell's Dark Matter. Done?

My favorite radio personality - Art Bell - is saying he is not going to be doing any more Dark Matter shows as of tonight. I hope he turns it around or goes somewhere else. Here are a few statement Art posted on facebook & twitter.

I'll do my thing.

Sometimes its like your lost in the world... I have everything set up & I'm not roaming the streets, pay my bills, have a job, but lately a few people have said some small comments that just get me down slightly, but at the same time I never believe them. Its as if what I'm doing is not normal enough or not good enough as if I deserve better & I think what I'm doing is just fine. I just find it bothersome that others are bothered by my actions that are really not that important at all. Its all just little stuff. Like I won't pay for a hair cut & I cut my own hair. It may not be a perfect hair cut but its fine enough to get by.

You do your thing & I'll do mine.
Thanks.

October is over...

October went by so quickly I don't know where it went, but yet october is still my favorite month. Mainly due to the cooler weather. Warm temperatures are not really my thing. I like seeing the leaves change plus its not super cold yet so that is my main deal... mostly. I do like halloween but this year I kind of dipped out on most any social activity mainly due to work.

The best things that happened were I got to see Quasi & Brian Wilson.

In november circulatory system is playing late in the month.

I am not going to be working on any new music until next year.

Later B-)
Eshniner